I hadn't visited my blog in months, but finally a muse appeared to me, not really a muse but a star -MY STAR-; and it has brought light to my heart, and hope to my life.
Well, I don't know if it's an old crush or I don't really know what it is. I found after several years my star, that lost star that used be so bright to me; while a lot of people thought that star was with no bright to me was the most beautiful star in the sky.
I can remember smiles, words, face movements, situations; I can remember about anything from that star that I don't remember about anybody else. When youngsters used to talk bad stuff about my star, I was there to confront, I was there to prove them wrong, I was there for my star; and sometimes even if they were right, my eyes could see nothing else but the light coming from that star. My star had nothing wrong, it was perfect and beautiful.
So now, after several years and seeing the bright of that star again and a lot of feelings have came abroad and it has me happy, enthusiastic, and rejuvenated; the star is not the same star, neither on body nor soul, it seems the same but the star has been enduring hard times [just as I have] and it appears to have a different glow, a different bright. Now, there are other things that you admire of my star [it will be mine forever because I have never seen it go shine less, because I have never forgotten it]. But, there is always a but with me; while in the past was difficult almost impossible to look at the star right at the heart of it, call it afraid, call it coward, call it whatever; now there are new obstacles to defeat.
Some of those obstacles are: the distance where the star is located, the afraid of seeing to the heart of the star, several years of sinsabores both from the star and from myself. I have enjoyed a few weeks of seeing the star so close to me, I have talked to the star [my star, remember?], I have told them secrets that I haven't told to nobody, we have remembered things and situations from the past. There seems to be a connection now that didn't exist in the past, not because of the star's fault or my fault, just something that didn't happen in the past.
The situation back then maybe wasn't right, but the fight to reach for my star this time has just begun, even that will be no easy but I won't rest until either reach my star or there are not possible ways to reach to it. And even then I won't forget it, it's bright will stay forever before my eyes.
